Materialism

Where do I begin. Why is it that Humans in general think they need to have the biggest, the best and the most? I am still trying to figure that out.

If I had more money than I knew what to do with I would not flaunt it. I would not buy the biggest house on the block or have the biggest and best things available. I would much prefer to live a simple life. Sure I would buy a few wanted items, but mostly needed items.

If I had plenty of money, I would not want to make myself a target for criminals. I would still wear average clothes to the stores, I would not drive a fancy car or have an expensive purse. I would not carry bank cards with me and I would only have enough cash for what I needed during that shopping trip.

I just don't understand why people put so much value in a person by the amount of money they make or what "things" they have to show it off. I put value in a person for how they treat others, not for what they own, what job they do or how much money they have.

It's time for the good people to take back the world

I have become very, very frustrated with a few things the past few years. I have come to the conclusion that the good people of the world need to take it back from the sick, disgusting, perverted, filthy, evil people.

I am tired of being walked all over just because I follow the rules and try not to cause trouble.
I am tired of turning on the news to here about 5 year olds being prostituted out and killed by the people that are suppose to care for and love them.
I am tired of people getting in their cars and acting like they are the only thing that matters on that road.
I am tired of sex and violence being the only thing on TV anymore.
I am tired of being treated like shit because I am not a size two model.
I am tired of ignorant old people living longer and being a waist of oxygen and space.
I am tired of eBay customers always trying to rip me off and eBay for giving them the power to do it.
I am tired of working outside of the home making it hard for me to take care of the family and home.
I am tired of sharing a planet with such sleazy horrible people.

I am tired of LIFE!

If we do not stand up now and start defending ourselves, when will it end. The harder the "good" people try to keep value and morals on this planet, the harder the perverted evil people fight against us. It is time to bring back capitol punishment. An eye for an eye. If you kill, you too shall be killed.

No more slaps on the wrist. Make prisons exactly what they should be....PRISONS. Don't give prisoners more than 2 meals a day. Don't give them a work out room, games, TV, books, and warm showers. Make them suffer as they have made others suffer. Make them work hard to earn the money that supports them.

Wow how time escapes so quickly

Well, Halloween came and went. I worked at a Haunted Attraction during October, so I did not get as much Halloween stuff done as I had first planned. But, I had a great time working there, so I am not complaining. I was sick on Halloween day, so I was not able to fully enjoy it however, we did manage to have a great Halloween anyway.

I can not believe Thanksgiving is only two weeks away. I am not ready for the holidays to hit quite so quickly. I am happy to say that I do have most of my Christmas shopping done. I have a little more to go.

My eBay store has slowed way down. I was expecting about 8 times the orders that I am getting for this time of year. But, with this economy, I am happy to have any sales at all.

I have to get going. I have a dentist appointment today :O I just wanted to pop in for a moment and say hi.

Halloween Stuff

Halloween is quickly approaching and I am going to start making some really fun decorations. Oh and my costume as well. I will post picks of the fun and interesting things that I come up with. I am sure it will be disturbing :)

As Dave would say, Ta Ta for now my children.

Life is what we make of it

I have been bothered by some things lately. One of them being that I have become more depressed. This started after I started taking the DQ to school on a daily basis. I wondered how that has caused stress and depression. I figured out that it comes from the music that she listens to. I hate it, but I let her listen to it anyway. Yes I know I am the parent, we don't have time for that discussion right now.

After listening (actually listening) to the lyrics of the music, I now have a much better understanding of why teens are all messed up these days. Yes this music discussion has been a huge issue in all generations of life, but this CRAP that they put on the radio these days is so bad that, as my dad would say "you had to be 18 and pay good money to see or hear that stuff in special theaters in my day" It is true. One song talks about "Gangsta Rap made me do it" It talks about cannibalism because "Gangsta rap made him do it", doing bad things because "Gangsta Rap made him do it". Almost all of the songs (I use the word songs very lightly) talk about having sex. Sex this, sex that, how many people are involved in the sex and where, why and when they will be doing it. There is one song that is just some stupid kid whispering into the microphone while what sounds like a porn track plays into the background. Other songs talk about buying whatever you want just because you want it and if you are not famous, you are scum.

That is telling kids that if they are not rich, famous and or having sex constantly, then they are no good. Plus it is just very depressing to hear that kind of decay and crap in our everyday lives and society makes it seem ok. No wonder kids are confused. The media is saying things are ok and parents are trying to teach kids that it is not. That is all VERY DEPRESSING!

Another example. Someone that I am very close to really enjoys very heavy metal music. Very loud, very disturbing lyrics. He watches TV programs about crimes, murders, rapes, and so on every night before he goes to bed. His choice of movies are all very loud, violent and gory. Well, guess what is going on with his health. Anxiety attacks. I really don't wonder why. If I listened to metal music that just screams profanities and anger into my head all day and then watched shows about evil people doing evil acts to people that they claimed to have cared about or loved, old people, children and strangers, I would be having anxiety attacks too.

We need to take a step back and really look at what we allow to influence our moods, behaviors and lives. If we don't, none of us will survive this so called life.

Take This Job And Stick It Up Your @SS!

I like my job. I like what I do here. I like having a job that pays well and the fact that I have my own quiet office is great.

BUT......I can't stand the behavior of about 3 people that work here.

My boss is a great guy and a decent boss, but he has some serious issues with how he treats peoples concerns and he lets a certain person take off WAY more time in one week then I could ever take off in a year. I am VERY PISSED about it. This person takes off a min of 1 day per week (usually Friday). She also gets away with coming in late on Mondays after long holiday weekends. I would have been fired if I even thought about doing that. The thing that pisses me off the most about my "boss" is that if I take a concern to him, he turns it all around on me. He says to other co-workers that "Carla is feeling picked on". I am suppose to keep track of back ordered items, so I asked if the warehouse manager (the person who receives shipments) could let me know shipments come in so that I can update the page. My boss said to me "So you want someone else to do your job for you?" NO! I just want to be notified when stuff comes in so that I can update things in a timely manner! JERK!

A certain co-worker (mentioned above) has taken the last 4 Fridays off, plus came in late on the Monday after the long 4th weekend. She takes early and long lunches whenever she feels like and she is now taking off more time, the Thursday before a holiday and coming in late on the Monday after! I am so freaking pissed...there are no words that can describe my anger right now.

I wrote an e-mail to my boss (who is in China this week) to let him know that I can no longer deal with the stress that is being caused because of the co-worker taking off so much freaking time. I would not have a problem with it if I did not have to do her job for her, making it so that I get into trouble for not getting my own job done.

I am at the end of my rope. I might be looking for another job soon. If anyone knows of anything, I would love to hear about it.

A Prediction

I have a prediction that we are going to have a very dry winter in 2009.

Why you ask? Because it has been raining ever sense Memorial Day. If we get all of this rain now, it means that we are not going to get it later in the year when we are use to getting it and or need it.

I have learned in life that when something great happens, like getting extra money for whatever reason, not too long down the road, that money is going to be needed for an unexpected event.

So, whenever I get an abundance of something, I hang onto it knowing that I am receiving it as a blessing because I will need it in the near future.

My theory is that we are getting an abundance of rain now because we will need it later when we would normally be getting the moister, but won't be.

The "New" American Dream

The American Dream is not what it use to be.

The things that use to be important to Americans was how well you treated each other, helping each other achieve dreams and have a good, clean and fun life. Raising a family was a goal for most people. Being part of and helping create a great community was important. People were friends because they enjoyed each others company. We use to have values, respect things and people. Honesty was expected and respected.

Now the "American Dream" has become superficial. There is no substance left in it. It is just all about how you look, how much money you make and how many people recognize your "perfect" face.

People now don't care about family, helping others, or being honest. All that matters is that they get their greedy little hands on everything they want. They don't care who they walk over or harm to get it. They want what they want and will do what it takes to get it.

Some people want a "perfect" body, so they torture themselves by starving, exercising (too much), getting surgeries and so on. Other people just simply want money so they can do whatever they want whenever they want. Some people just want fame. They will do whatever it takes to get it, not caring about who or what they destroy on the path to getting there.

People now judge each other on what size of a house you live in, what kind of car you drive, what fancy clothes you wear, where you get your hair done and how much you spend on that 5oz salad at lunch.

Some people will ONLY be friends with other people who "have it all" just because they want to be around those things, not because they really care anything about the person that they are hanging out with.

The worst part of it all is that nobody wants to WORK HARD for anything that they need or want. They find ways to get money without earning or deserving it.

This is all SO STUPID! We need to get back to what this country was really built on and for. HARD WORKING, CARING PEOPLE!

I grew very poor. But, I am not any less of a person because of it. In fact, I am glad that I did because I can now appreciate things that I am sure many people can not appreciate because they have never gone without. They have always been spoiled.

We did not need money to have a good life. We were raised with values and taught to respect and not judge others. We were financially poor but spiritually rich. We were loved and cared about. We did not always have food to eat, but we always had love in our home.

When I say that I grew up poor, I do not mean that I grew up without getting everything that I wanted. Up until I was 14 years old, our family of 6 (Mom, Dad and 3 siblings) lived in a 2 bedroom single wide mobile home. My parents put a wall between the one bedroom to split it in two. I shared my 1/2 room with my two sisters while my brother had his own 1/2 room. I think my room was about 6 feet wide by 10 feet long. We had a bunk bed and a dresser in there. That was all there was room for. But, at least I had a roof over my head, a bed to sleep in and a dresser to put clothes in. We did not have everything we wanted, but we did have a good life and grew up to be good people.

My grandmother grew up "dirt poor"....literally. That term was used when people could not afford flooring in their homes. My grandmothers family was one of them. Her family had one large bed that they all slept in, 8 kids I think. The house was very small and had a dirt floor. But, my grandmother is one of the most honest and wonderful woman that I have ever met in my life. She is a true insperation.

As Americans, we need to stop putting the value of a person in the amount of money they have or what they look like and start putting the value in what type of person they are and how they treat others. We need to bring integrity and honesty back into our lives. We need to make family and each other our number one priority. Not money and selfishness.

We have become a very selfish country. It is not surprising that most other countries hate us at this point.

I was thinking of remodeling my bathroom

BUT NOT LIKE THIS!

I just want to give a big F___ U to the world!

All you jackass drivers out there need take your stupid ass cars and drive them off cliffs...I hope you die!

Anal jackasses need to take your stupid analness and shove it up your ass where it belongs.

Bosses can take their higher than mighty attitudes and drowned themselves in them.

Most "Mormons" need to crawl back under the rock that they dared pull themselves out from under.

And all you idiots that post rude comments on message boards just because that is all that you have left to do in life, can go choke on your own egos.

I don't know what I did in a past life to warrant me going to Hell (Earth) for however long my prison term here will be, but I sure will be happy when it is time for me to leave this lice (they call themselves humans) infested planet.

I can't wait for the day that I no longer have to "be nice" just to be shit upon by the lice of this world. I will wait out my time like everyone else, but I sure in the Hell ain't gonna like it!

If I ever get cancer....Please let me die, don't make me suffer so you can torture me more.
If I slit my throat....Sit there an listen to it gurgle while I take my last almost breaths.
If I take pills and go into a coma rather than dying.....Take me off any machines and watch me slip quietly or hopefuly not so quietly out of this body.
If I ever buy a gun...don't take it away from me, it might be my only way out of Hell.

If you read this and want to lock me up and or put me in a streight jacket...do it...I don't fucking care. There is nothing left in this world for me anymore.